I didn't follow my plan. I didn't discipline myself to get up when I told myself I would.
"No stamina," I mumbled to myself as I made myself consider jumping somewhat expectantly out of bed.
"I have to make myself productive."
Maybe it was not that important to get up because as I was half in sleep as my life marched across my consciousness. I thought over the years of my life about the things I have done to be what I thought was productive. I thought over the things I have accomplished. Was it really the things I accomplished, or how I conducted myself with love and consideration for others? Perhaps more about accomplishing. I was trained to do that. Funny....as I say all this, it sounds like I am reflecting from my death bed. That's not true. I am anticipating many more days to love and be loved. The fact is that I am now old enough to look back over enough years to really see more truth about life.
My mantra over the past few years has been "Live life loving."In what ways does life really count?
Solomon, the great entrepreneur was able to discern alot of godly wisdom through overscheduling. He by took the road of material things ended up doing doing doing. Yet, he delighted in his labor. Labor is good. In the 2nd chapter of Ecclesiastes he states:
I denied myself nothing my eyes desired;
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my labor,
and this was the reward for all my toil.
Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
For all of us, this does not mean stop working or reaching high toward goals and developing talents. Solomon had a multi-year job of building the ornate temple in Jerusalem. Here is another quote:
(God) has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart;
yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy
and to do good while they live. From Ecclesiastes 3
Hmmm, there is nothing better for people than to be happy. "Dance" in the midst of it all. Live life loving. "Dancing" is representative of living with self-abandonment and freely. Oh, how I long to be free. I tend to blame society for the burden of competition and accomplishment and making a name for myself, be it school, church, or upbringing. Those things are OK if they are not foremost in life.
Dance, in work, and in play and let Love lead. God is Love.