Reading a book can feel like a long journey. I recently read "The Rooster Bar" by John Grisham. As I got into it, I couldn't wait to get to the end. It wasn't because I wanted it to be over. I just wanted to know how it all turned out. It wasn't until the last page that I got it all. Too bad I didn't think to read the last page first. I had to take it word by word, page by page.
Life can be overwhelming. The news, the inner turmoil of watching things go haywire and not knowing where security lies is very real. There are also questions about inner strength and where it comes from.
Like the book I read, I don't know what is next for me, no matter how much I plan or envision or try to read the end first.
Someone has held my hand and led me to this point? What is next? How do I face it?
Sunday morning, our pastor shared from Jeremiah about how his city was being taken down and people were "walking away" from God and turning to things they thought THEY controlled. Even in all that, God was still with them, loving on them. It was at that point that he made a new covenant.
33 “This is the covenant I will make with the people of Israel after that time,” declares the LORD. “I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people.
34No longer will they teach their neighbor, or say to one another, ‘Know the LORD,’ because they will all know me, from the least of them to the greatest,” declares the LORD. “For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”
35 This is what the LORD says, he who appoints the sun to shine by day, who decrees the moon and stars to shine by night, who stirs up the sea so that its waves roar— the LORD Almighty is his name:
Jeremiah told them that the days were coming. These ARE the days, because the Holy Spirit came after Jesus' death and resurrection. And HE indwells his people.
Most of my life, in the hard times, I have leaned on God. In the good times, I have been tempted to stand on my own two feet. "I'm strong now." I would tell myself. In other words, I walk away from God. The words written by Jeremiah describe the fact that He is in me.
"It is not enough for God to just hold your hand. He wants to hold your heart!"my pastor declared emphatically.
"You can't walk away, when this happens. How can you?"
Difficult times make me move closer to this truth and realize that God is fully integrated in me.
Like the book I read, my life can be overwhelming. I don't stop because of a little bit of anxiety. I take it breath by breath, page by page, and allow the spirit of God to hold my heart and direct me from my inner core. I don't get it...how he can do this or even why he would consider it. I do experience it. That's all I know.
If God knows the beginning and the end and we are inbetween, we can go forward securely.